Life isn't going too badly. I had an epiphany last night that had taken me three years to get to. See, I have this issue with myself - I'm constantly (and I mean constantly) obsessed with the fact I have no direction in life, I'm terrified I'm going to turn into a social recluse that has no life experience or accomplishments by the time I'm 30. This need for a long term goal has been eating away at me, making me more and more depressed until finally, last night, the penny dropped.
I realised a "long term goal" doesn't actually state how far off in the future you need to plan for. It's an undetermined amount of time. I've been thinking for ages that a long term goal should be something more like a five year plan, but it doesn't. "Long term" could mean just one year. And thinking about it that way is actually a lot easier to manage. I know what my one-year long term goal is. It's to move into a bigger place with my boyfriend. At the moment I'm not even living with him at all and he lives in this tiny little flat that barely has enough room for him to live in, let alone two people. Believe me, I know, we lived in it together for a couple of years. So now I have that manageable one year goal down I can think of ways to break it down into manageable short-term goals.
So yes, despite the mass of disorganisation that my life has become, figuring out that I can set the boundaries on what is considered a long term goal is a huge step forward, a step towards seeing my dreams - whatever they may be - come true.
DeviantART related
In other, deviant art related news... I tidied up my featured gallery so it's not full of the random scribbles and doodles I keep adding here. Now it's just got nice, pretty finished pictures! Hurray for organisation! I wanted to show off my completed works in that section so if anyone was taking a look at my gallery they wouldn't be put off by the sheer volume of RUBBISH that was in it. Now it's nice and clean and I can get a nice ego boost to look through all my "good" pictures and think "hey, I'm not a bad artist after all". Yes, that is my secret motivation. Neenurs.
I've also redone my commission info page, check it out if you like: [link] Hey, buy a commission if you like, too
Art feature
Because it's valentines day, here's an adorable picture of kissy puppys by *Nekoshiba

It is the definition of adorableness.







